Christmas Memories:   These are pictures of some of the Grandkids at the School Christmas Programs this past Christmas.  I love going to these.  Sadly some of my photos were not very clear, but at least I got them.  HA

 

 

 

 

 

Realizing Face Book really is not a place where I should say much; after quite sometime I make my entry back to blogging where I belong.  In reading the last post I wrote I have to say I have grown a lot since then, and even in the midst of great difficulty, I feel alive and joyful because God is so awesome and blesses me greatly in the storms of life.   This winter has seen us through the miracle of Danelle recovering from the accident which I have not written about on here.  I have written in journals.  But there is always beauty in the storms.   Thank goodness for that.  LOL

Even Angels Cry
In the darkness of the night
In the emptyness and tears
The dark seems to overtake me
Although the day's light is near.
The dark side of my existance
... seems to over cast my soul
The fallen state of Joy
The everlasting fight
Suddenly I realize
an outcast's pain
will never die.

I wonder why it is Ravens en-circle one who is crying.  I had this happen to
me once.  I was so desparatly sad that I went out in the hills sobbing when
suddenly several Ravens were en-circling above me.     I can't fb my true feelings,
my pain, the never ending pain of rejection that I struggle with.  Living here
in the canyonlands being alone so much of the time and people not wanting me in
their life has caused a darkness in me that I feel to be slowly losing the battle of
trying and getting up and getting up just to be pushed again.  I get so discouraged
and despite the darkness in the picture it is how I feel most of the time inside anymore.
I truly try.  I pray and pray and pray I get lost in ministry and try to forget myself,
but somehow when the night time comes, there I am, I am still there with the sadness
and emptyness that just will not go away.  Please Dear God, where are you?

 It is so amazing that The Lord led me to this awesome little place out near Dove Creek Colorado
to sing with Pastor Deb and Rhonda, the piano player.  Singing has been a passion for me
since I was very young.  I used to sing solos a lot at the LDS church while I was growing up.
I remember singing at Church, and many other Church Functions.  I would go with the groups
that would go out on the reservation and sing as well.  I sang at Rhode shows and School
assemblies as well.  I have played with worship bands and now I do the music for Mass In
Monticello, and I sing every friday at the Jail, and I am so blessed to go out to the campfire
fellowship with Deb.

 

These are a few of the people that go out for services.  It is absolutely beautiful there.
Praise the Lord for He is so good.

Rosey's Bears and Art

I'm Official, I finally got my buisness License

" While Angels are watching over you, Teddy bear you can hug,

comforting gifts from God above."

Little Cali is the first to recieve one of my bears, which I

sent to her for her birthday. Isn't Cali so cute?

I have always loved teddy bears. I've written poems

about them and I've made them in different variations, but this is my favorite. And now,

I have my own buisness making them to sale. I am so excited. I will be posting more pix of

new bears I crochet. This one was crocheted and then I did latch hook to make it look furry.

Sunset in Tucson

The Sunset sky in Tucson marked the end of life on this earth for my husbands daddy, Ed Burt.

The fire in this stove kept the chill down from the cooling evening as we sat around talking about memories. My favorite memory of my father in law is listening to him talk to me on the phone about his stove and how he sits around it drinking beer with his friends. I loved hearing him talk about his garden, his chickens, and his mean as hell rooster.

My mother in law is a very stron woman with courage

and laughter during such sadness in her life.

This past week has been a very hard week for our family. Before my sweet father In law passed away I took this picture; the last kiss from his beloved wife. They were such a shining example of true love to me and losing him especially in such a sad way has been very hard for all.

We spent time with the family laughing and crying.

The love of my life with his mom, sister and brother and in the

photo below I am in the photo with them.

I was also able to see an old friend of mine from high school, Denisa who lives in Dublin Ireland. We all had breakfast together at a truck stop in Tucson. We had such a great time seeing Phyllis and John again too. I have really missed Phyllis since she moved from Monticello.

Me, Denisa, John, Val, her hubby, and their little daughter.

All in all, this post is dedicated to the life of my father in law, and the sweet memories I have of him. My prayers are with my husbands family, my husband, and may Ed Burt RIP.

showers of blessings

A while back we met a man who wanted me to play my guitar and sing for his LDS ward here in Monticello. He and his wife own the Canyonlands Lodge and one day he invited us out to meet her. When we got there I was so surprised to see a gal I've known most of my life Tina Mantz. Slowly we have gotten to know them. He is so flipping funny. He plays the spoons and he made this adorable Cowboy bass Drum. He has been telling me forever he is going to bring it over and play it for me. Jerry, is his name, and Tina came by tonight with it. Before they left they told us they are getting ready to go on a Mission and so he told me I could have his bass drum. I am still laughing with joy because I think it is just so cool. It really works too.

I was also blessd to recieve this organ as a gift. WOW!!!! I am just so blessed. God knows I love music - I have a passsion for music and I am just in awe at how blessed I've been. I was also given a piano so ... Lord please help me find a teacher so I can learn to play well. I do play somewhat but I need to learn to play very well. Thank You Jesus....

Feeling so Blessed

LOL .... We aren't grouchy. The sun was in our eyes and the wind was blowing quite hard...
But all in all we are feeling quite blessed living in such a lovely place and having each other.

I took this picture while sitting in my rocking chair in the livingroom. I am so in love with this Mountain. I love the view of the horse head. This is the most beautiful place I have very lived.

I am so thankful for all my wonderful blessings.